What a mad dash that was!
It was my sisters wedding day yesterday, and I say yesterday as I left straight from the reception to catch the London flight with monkey at 2am.
I am writing this as we wait on the plane to take off on our brand new adventure and apparently with a cold. Joy.
A couple of months ago I made a decision that will either determine my next role n life or be my next failed experiment at a new start.
Obviously I hope for the latter.
I should maybe start from the beginning, or at least a little while back in Order to explain my current location.
I spent 2 years in New York City on a fashion design course and upon graduation I was offered an incredible opportunity to take a post in an events production company. I declined.
I wasn't crazy and I do not regret my decision in the slightest, but I needed to head back to the UAE in order to be closer to someone I was and still am deeply in love with. We have been together 7 years and I have loved every single weird and wonderful moment of it. The long distance from NYC to Abu Dhabi definitely tested our relationship. Neither of us know just how we did it but I can admit that I learned how NOT to do a long distance relationship.
A. Do not doubt or mistrust - yes they are a very long way away but stop convincing yourself that he/she is being unfaithful just because they have to leave the conversation early on msn or Skype.
B. Do not overshadow or smother one another - as much as you need to show your commitment and strength and involve your partner In how many birds you saw that day.
C. Never waste the opportunity you grant yourself - I was in NYC! A fast paced city full of amazing people and experiences, learn and grow don't hide and sink.
Once I returned to the UAE I began a job search. And with the very little design experience I had obtained I found it disheartening as to how little there was available to me. And so I applied to work in a modeling and events company. Got the job! And spent almost a year pouring my heart into a job that paid VERY little (a lot if you have not worked before!) and spent that time driving up and down between Abu Dhabi in order to prove myself. I ended up losing that job, not because of my work, but due to the company losing funds.
I was lost once again.
My dad offered me a job in his recruitment company, I took it. Good pay, safe visa options and a very good team to work with. 18 months later, I felt stuck. I was working to live, and was not really doing much of that living part. I felt unmotivated and depressed but at the same time I was very much respected in the company.
I made the final decision to leave. And just before I made it official monkey and I spent a few days discussing the options I had.
I missed fashion, that much was true. I had lost my creative ability and disappointed myself when I attempted to draw.
We debated the states or Asia, but the best option I found was London. Central Saint Martins and London College of Fashion offer short courses lasting about 9 to 10 weeks. Illustration to design, jewelry to hats!
The choices astounded me.
I signed myself up!
Illustration for jewelery
Intro to Fashion
Footwear design
Fashion styling
Yep! It felt right.
I even researched singing and dance classes. If I was going to do this I wanted to make sure that each moment counted.
Monkey decided to come to! The music circuit in the UAE grew stale, and it was time for a reboot for both of us.
And so here we are : ) sitting on a plane ready to fly back to good old blighty!
I know it's a risk, but I knew that something needed to change and that something was hidden within me running around in confused circles attempting to find that light at the end of the tunnel.
I am extremely nervous though. I start on Tuesday and I have still not bought all of my supplies!
Writing this blog was one of the promises I made to myself, to document and experience and share.
"Curiouser & Curiouser." - Lewis Carrol
